Dear Bloggers,
Do you ever find yourself feeling disappointed or angry because things haven’t worked out as you had expected? Maybe you recently expected your partner to do something and are annoyed that she didn’t do it. Perhaps you formed an expectation of achieving a life goal by this stage of your life and are feeling frustrated that things haven’t worked out as you planned.
Expectation is defined as “a strong belief that something will happen or be the case.” We may place expectations on others or impose them on ourselves. You may find yourself making rules for yourself, starting with “I should…” - this is a clue that you have set an expectation for yourself. I set some life goals for myself in my early years that at the age of 65, I would be able to retire and would live free, as our home was paid for and there was nothing to worry about. The question is whether this expectation was healthy and realistic, or unhealthy and maybe even irrational. It became strange as the tax office took everything away from us. As they claimed all our money so I could not pay of our mortgage. When other people place expectations upon you and you do not meet them, you might find yourself feeling guilty. At certain points you thik that you are just a loser. It doesn’t surprise me that some became suicidal.
The expectations we make as humans are future-based predications of an outcome. This is flawed, as we cannot ever predict the future. Furthermore, we may consult the past and gather evidence of events that happened previously to inform our future expectations. Just because something happened a certain way before, doesn’t mean that’s how it will turn out this time around. This can be disappointing at best and life debilitating at worst; as mental health disorders such as anxiety, phobias and panic disorder can be defined as expectation disorders.
Most of your expectations will be formed from your own values, perspective or frame of reference. For example, you might feel disappointment after having expected to be given a leaving card by colleagues, because you have always arranged leaving cards for colleagues in the past. However, you did this from your valuing system - your colleagues might not value giving cards. If you judge the actions of others and form expectations based on what you would have done, you may regularly end up disappointed.
There is a way forward from this
The good news is, once you understand how your expectations are impacting your life, this gives you the power to adjust them if necessary. The first thing to do is spend some time reflecting on your expectations during past adverse events, in your relationships and life goals. This is a healthy way to use the past to inform your awareness, rather than to make predictions or underpin fears. Journaling is a useful self-reflection tool, or you could make mind maps or notes on your phone - find something that works for you.
Once you have identified your expectations and how they have informed past outcomes, you might recognise some patterns. When you become aware of patterns, you have the power to break them. It is pretty hard to break out of it sometimes.
To help inspire your reflections, let us consider some examples of how expectations can negatively impact different areas of your life:
In marriage/relationships
My wife is feeling angry and resentful. She cooks dinner every day and I, her partner, never offers to wash up. When my wife was growing up, if one parent cooked, the other washed up. Her silent resentment of me getting to sit down while she’s still in the kitchen, builds and she starts being snappy with him. I had no idea what I have done wrong or what her ‘problem is’. Now I know it’s me. Her expectation that I should wash up as that was formed by her past experiences. Her resentment is building because he is not acting in the way which she expects, but she has not communicated this expectation to me. I am just a simple man.
Here communication and explanation of her feelings of resentment could result in a change in my behaviour. If she continues keeping quiet, things will stay the same and her resentment will remain. It comes to escalation.
When i was about to turn 40. I always expected to be settled with a family and our own house by this stage in life. Instead I had to sell our house and buy something lived out and a lot smaller. And I find myself stuck in a lifetime with no prospects, after all those years being haunted by the tax office, I still have a little motivation to change it. For years I have not been aware that this is the reason for all our sadness. As the law suit against the tax office approaches, My mood dips lower and Iam still feeling hopeless about the future. To numb and escape from this feeling, I have started to join Facebook groups with fellow victims of this scandal.
Here I could benefit from working with a therapist to reflect on his low mood and hopefully realise that not meeting his expected goals by this point in his life, may be responsible for his low moods.
I am likely to have more enthusiasm to make the first steps to changing my life. Reframing my thoughts around the expectations I had, it will hopefully help me to realise he is not a failure. Feeling like a failure is often at the root of low self-esteem and low self-worth.
I have had many friends but due to the survival mode, I’ve lost many of them out of sight. There was no money to spend to arrange something; without communicating this to the rest of the world. We just stayed away from a birthday and all kinds of other parties as we could not afford anything. Furthermore, I was laid off at work, so I had to find a new job having no money for whatsoever even getting food on the table was a hassle, feeling let down by most of our friends. Some of them dropped off a box of groceries. Others never came by. Our kids helped providing food with their jobs and pocket money.
All of this could have been avoided if the Tax office had communicated with us about wat their intentions were. Instead, they made an assumption and set expectations based upon past salaries, when they decided to take everything from us, even our dignity. Furthermore, if they had spoken to us, it would’ve provided opportunity for us to explain how things were. That I worked under certain systems taxwise for a Danisch company. We could’ve made other plans and negosiations based upon this information. These examples show how important communication is in the real world the same goes for relationships and friendships. You cannot place expectations upon somebody, without even communicating this to the person. Although in the army there was only basic orders and low communication, only if something really happened you could ask them for help. It doesn’t matter how well you believe they know you, it doesn’t mean they can read your mind or pre-empt your expectations.
Similarly, it’s important to spend time reflecting on the expectations you have set for yourself. These may be from an internalised critical parent or authority figure from your own past; ask yourself is that “I should” your voice or somebody else's? Do you really expect this from yourself, or does somebody else? Perfectionism is underpinned by a fear of failure and can be so debilitating that a person can get into patterns of avoidance and procrastination; preferring to avoid, than risk getting it ‘wrong’ from their perspective.
Are all expectations unhealthy?
So far expectation has got a bad name in this blog, but not all expectations are unhealthy. Some are necessary and form boundaries in our relationships. For example, expecting your partner to remain faithful to you in a committed relationship is a healthy expectation.
Setting expectations in relationships and friendships collaboratively is a healthy way to ensure misunderstandings and resentment are less likely to occur.
Setting life goals can be motivating and end up as positive outcomes, but the way you react if you do not meet these life goals could be detrimental. Don’t aim to high and set your goals as possible ones and approach them with an attitude of patience. Be kind to yourself and flexible rather than fixed on a certain outcome by a certain time. Sometimes things don’t work out as you might’ve planned or expected, it can turn out to be the best thing.
It’s okay to hope that things will work out the way you would like and having future plans. Hoping is not the same as expecting.
If you have a painful life expectation that has not worked out, please seek the help of a therapist to work through this and grieve for your loss. Your feelings are still valid, even if you had set an unhealthy expectation, and you deserve space to work through them.
Understanding how ‘expectation’ can impact your peace of mind.
The Old Sailor,
